no more baby

Last Thursday I was so excited to tell EVERYONE about our new baby, we had a video of a "healthy baby" and our Dr was very optimistic. 1 week later we are again baby less, I have higher BP and sinus bradycardia. I feel defeated, physically I feel fine but emotionally I'm torn up. When is God going to bless us with good news and let us ENJOY it without taking away our happiness!?! I've been on the couch the majority of the week recovering but my heart is shredded on the ground with grief.